Not taking it for granted....

Tonight I was reading up on my blogs and ended up reading one about this sweet first time Momma who lost her son Ayden to SIDS...he was only 4 months old. As I was reading on I saw just how much she loved her baby boy and the way she described her feelings about her son were the very same feelings I have for my Logan. I honestly cannot even fathom the loss of a child. As I was reading her story I began to sob and sob-you know the kind of sobbing where you almost can't breathe? Yep, that was me. I began to think of my own kiddos and how head over heels crazy in love with them I am, and to imagine losing one of them is literally my worst fear EVER! My mind began to wander and I was thinking about how I would react if one of my little ones were taken from this earth-would I blame God? Would I become angry at the world? I guess we don't really know until we are put into those sorts of circumstances, but I hope and pray that I would lean on the Lord as my stregnth! What impressed me so much about this Mom is that she really left all of the details in God's hands. She was praising the Lord for the 4 months that she DID have with him. She really was just so grateful to God for her baby and she knew that God had a bigger plan in mind on how he was going to use the testimony of her family on how they got through this tragedy. I was so grateful that I ran across her story. It reminded me how much I need to cherish every single moment with my little sweeties. As soon as I finished reading her story I went straight upstairs to kiss my sleeping kids. Kiely was fast asleep and Logan was stirring so I took the opportunity to rock him and nurse him back to sleep. I NEVER want to take simple moments like that for granted, I know how deeply blessed I am. I love you Kiely-Grace and Logan-James!!