Not taking it for granted....

Tonight I was reading up on my blogs and ended up reading one about this sweet first time Momma who lost her son Ayden to SIDS...he was only 4 months old. As I was reading on I saw just how much she loved her baby boy and the way she described her feelings about her son were the very same feelings I have for my Logan. I honestly cannot even fathom the loss of a child. As I was reading her story I began to sob and sob-you know the kind of sobbing where you almost can't breathe? Yep, that was me. I began to think of my own kiddos and how head over heels crazy in love with them I am, and to imagine losing one of them is literally my worst fear EVER! My mind began to wander and I was thinking about how I would react if one of my little ones were taken from this earth-would I blame God? Would I become angry at the world? I guess we don't really know until we are put into those sorts of circumstances, but I hope and pray that I would lean on the Lord as my stregnth! What impressed me so much about this Mom is that she really left all of the details in God's hands. She was praising the Lord for the 4 months that she DID have with him. She really was just so grateful to God for her baby and she knew that God had a bigger plan in mind on how he was going to use the testimony of her family on how they got through this tragedy. I was so grateful that I ran across her story. It reminded me how much I need to cherish every single moment with my little sweeties. As soon as I finished reading her story I went straight upstairs to kiss my sleeping kids. Kiely was fast asleep and Logan was stirring so I took the opportunity to rock him and nurse him back to sleep. I NEVER want to take simple moments like that for granted, I know how deeply blessed I am. I love you Kiely-Grace and Logan-James!!

There's just something about Coffee....

Those who know me well know how much I love my coffee..its a part of my very being! Am I a little dependent on it? Sure! Am I a coffee snob? No! Well..maybe a little, but I love everything from Folgers to Starbucks and so on.. The very smell of coffee can set me for my day, there is something so exhilirating about that special aroma that tells me with conviction.."You can face the day ahead". I love going to places like T.J. Maxx, they have that special little isle devoted to people like me-you know the isle I am talking about because you all roam that isle too...you know the one filled with all those special treats and delicous coffees from around the world! It is a dangerous isle to go down, so proceed with caution!

I think I can thank my Dad for my early love of coffee, I remember sitting in the Flames Coffee shop with him as a youngster sipping the remnants of his java..fast forward to my high school years when Starbucks made its mark on society-oh my we all just went wild with the caffiene craze didn't we? Now that I am a Mom I realize that I need it often just so I can make it through the day, but more than anything I just love the taste, it takes me to my "happy place", a place where I can close my eyes, breathe in that special smell and know that a new day has dawned!